Waiting . . . and waiting. . . .

Well I'm on maternity leave now and doing more work now then I was before lol. We have probably half way finished cleaning out the garage. We are hoping to have a garage sale soon to earn a little extra money.

Eddies room is finished we still haven't gotten the little stuff we need. Money it tight, but I'm not freaking out about it (yet). Morgan is though he is sooo stressed out going on about we have so much to do before the baby gets here. I don't see it so I'm like what? What all do we have to do? He thought for a second and just said "I'm nesting alright! and your not!" lol poor guy really has had the brunt of the pregnancy symptoms.

We have a busy week this week. We have a WIC appointment tomorrow then I have to go get the group b strep swab done (ugh). Then Thursday he has an appointment for his VA disability and Friday we have one last ultra sound. Then on Saturday he has another appointment for the VA thing and Jen is supposed to be coming over for a BBq for Madis birthday (even though she just did one on Saturday at her house which i have a feeling lunchbox was at so that's why shes having 2 but i wont go into that now). On Sunday morning Morgan is going to pic up one of his nieces in Georgetown then swing back by the house to pick me up and then we're taking her to his sisters in San Fransisco. And on that day I will be exactly 9 months.

I haven't been off work for a week and I'm already bored outta my mind. I'm just so exhausted that even if i had the money to do something I wouldn't want to.

And just for the hell of it, My giant brown noser.

Almost home free but just digging a hole.

So I've worked my last actual day at work. Now I just have a 2 hour meeting and an 8 hour shift to train my replacement. I just hope they stop harassing me now.

I'm also still stressing about money while I'm on maternity leave. Wouldn't be so bad if my car wasn't crapping out. I wish I knew someone that could throw us a little charity and fix it for us. I mean I don't mind paying for the parts but my friends husband wants 60$ to tell us whats wrong and $30 an hour to fix it.

Our only hope is for dh to get his disability soon. I know mom and dad are going to help but I hate asking them to do that cause I know they have bills too. I'm starting to feel overwhelmed financially. I really need a new job.

Loooooooong time. . . . .

So yeah it's been a while. Tons has happened. We found out we're having a boy! Morgan really wanted to name the baby after his father and I really wanted to name him after my grandfather so we compromised. His name will be Edward Gustavus. My parents wanna call him Gus, which I am OK with, I;ve been called my middle name my entire life. It irritated Morgan though. My high blood pressure magically went away when I switched from the midwife to the OB but I have been getting ultrasounds once a month just to be safe. I'm not complaining lol. Also no gestational diabetes. Yeay!! everyone was so worried cause I'm fat but I have had a perfect pregnancy so far.



This was about 14 weeks

This was 20 weeks. That believe it or not is a penis.

One of my favorites. 27 weeks. 

No doubt that's a penis!! 31 weeks.



His face. Looks like he was smiling. 31 weeks.

 Now I am 33 weeks and things are going just fine. Eddie is moving ALL the time. He is measuring a week a head but the doctor said it was cause he has a big head lol.

Our one year anniversary passed. Was nice just to two of us had a little BBQ. He wrote me a sweet poem. Nothing much really happened in April.

In May we had a chance to go see his nieces. That was nice. Went to Gibson Ranch and had a BBQ with the in laws. Got into some trouble at work which I totally deserved. I went through the humiliating meeting and did the degrading punishment but they are taking this too far. They are bullying me trying to get me to quit. I mean I've gotten written up by someone that hasn't worked there in 5 months. So anyway I have 8 days until maternity leave I just have to hold out until then. My goal is to not come back after. I've put out so many applications already. Anyway.

In May was also my baby shower. It was fun I'm glad I didn't wait until I was further along. I was so exhausted and over stimulated I felt like a little kid. It was great seeing so many friends and family. I know Eddie will be loved. My only complaint is that one friend who has been flaky since I met DH and could not be happy for us having a baby, showing up bringing a bunch of her friends getting drunk hanging out on the patio eating our food and then leaving. Really? I am so close to writing this person off totally. I deserve better friends then that.

My baby shower cupcake cake.

Dh's sisters came. One of which I have never met before.

And we played games

So far in June I have just been concentrating on getting to my maternity leave with my sanity in tact. Dh has been soo much help. He has taken over a majority of the house work. I don't know what I would do with out him. He takes such good care of me and I know hes going to be an amazing Daddy. Its crazy how much love I feel for Eddie already. To feel this much love for someone I've never met. 

I think we are pretty ready. As ready as you can be I guess. We still need some little things like hair brush and nail clippers. We have all the big stuff crib, car seat, stroller, bassinet, pack and play, changing table, receiving blankets, clothes (got some from the baby shower and a bunch for free off craigslist) bibs, and bottles (which we hopefully wont need for a while). I would love to get a swing but I know its not a necessity. I've been keeping an eye on craigslist for one for cheap.

Mom and Dad are doing good. Still on the road. The plan is late July early August they are going to stay on the west coast. Then when I go into labor they are going to go to the closest air port and Mom is going to get on a plane and Dad is going to make his way here when he can. They are so excited its cute. I get texts every once in a while saying "Grandpa struck again!" lol

Grandma is doing OK. Not better but not too much worse. I cant wait until we can take Eddie to go see her. Get some pictures and stuff cause I know she will pass before he is old enough to remember her. I'm just glad to even have the opportunity for him to met her.

The "kids" are doing good too. Simon is is usual grumpy old man. Ezra had an issue with her eye a couple weeks ago. She got something in her eye. Scared the crap out of us. Boo has sores on his ears like Simon used to get. Still cant figure out why. Simon is slowly warming up to Ezra and Boo just loves her. We just need to get him to stop digging under the fence.

Ez is getting so big. 93lbs when we were at the vet.

This is after the vet said it was just a scratch.

This is what dh pulled outta her eye the next day.

Its been soooo hot here. The thermostat in my car said 107 today. My car is over heating and my AC doesn't work. Of course this shit happens right before I go on maternity leave and money is going to be beyond tight. Its going to be a miserable summer for be being so huge and it being so hot. I'm going to spend alot of time in the bath tub and walking around half naked while i still can. I'm kinda worried about Eddie with the heat too. I mean how can you swaddle a new born with its so damn hot.

So anyway hopefully I will be able to keep up on this a little more once I go on leave. I"m off to lay in front of the fan with dh lol.

Marley

So its been a good couple of days. Just trying to relax and keep my blood pressure down. We got just dance 2 and there is work out mode on there. I know its not helping the blood pressure thing but when I have been checking my blood pressure lately it hasn't been that bad. I've only gained about 7 lbs so far with the pregnancy. I'm really proud of my self. Was really worried I'd balloon up, and well I know I'm not done.

Got the last thing I wanted to get with my tax return yesterday. This is Marley.

She's about 4 months old. We got her from a guy on CL. He seemed kinda shady but Morgan fell in love with Marley. I'm pretty sure shes a Cinnamon, which from what i read is pretty rare. You cant really tell in this picture though. They are going through their dominance stuff and shes nipped me twice. We really need to jump on that. But besides that shes a sweet heart.

On the baby front, no new to report. Have my first appointment with a real OB on Wednesday. And don't look at me like I'm a bad mom not going to see a doctor sooner, we are switching from a midwife to an OB cause of my blood pressure.

I'm off for now. We are trying to have a bon fire tonight. Gonna go eat before anyone gets here. One more picture!

Fur Pile

Quato

Had a busy week, yet didn't really do too much. We got a new (used) big ferret cage. The fuzzys seem to love it. We have been looking for another ferret. We have decided three is our number. Three dogs, three ferrets, and some day three kids. We are going to be totally out numbered lol.




The fuzzys.


Ezra got spayed yesterday. Poor girl. She did great though and all the ladies there seemed to love her. She was nice with all the other dogs before, and slept all day after. She could barley walk out of the building. Dh had to lift her up into the truck and back out when we got home. She walked into the house fine though. we put her in the kennel so the boys would leave her alone. I checked on her after 2 hours and she hadn't moved so I left the door of the kennel open for her so she could walk around a little if she felt up to it and 2 hours later still didn't move. I coxed her out and she plopped back on the floor. I felt so bad she was so groggy. But this morning she nosed me at like 3 to go potty. Such a good girl. And had been back to her normal self ever since. Now we just have to keep her from playing.

When we brought Ezra home from the vet.

I had a weird dream night before last.  They talk about women having baby dreams and they mean certain things, but what do you think this means. As a joke Ive called the baby "Quato" a could times. If you have seen the movie Total Recall you know who that is. If not its you can google it and see pictures. Anyway I dreamt that the baby was kinda coming out of me like outta my stomach. It was like still under my skin but was just like sitting on top of my organs. I had to hold it to try keep it safe and I could feel its head and body like I was actually holding it in my hand. I was trying to hold it next to me to keep it safe. It was such a weird dream. I always figured the baby dream would be something that was sweet or funny or maybe even scary but not so damn weird.

After this dream I think I will stop making that joke

That didnt take long. . .

That's how it starts lol I miss a couple days on the blog and eventually forget about it. I'm really gonna try not to do that this time.

Been pretty busy. Got a bunch of shopping done. I'm figuring I'm not gonna get stuff like a high chair or changing table at the baby shower so we got that with our tax return while we have the money. I'd also like to set up the cloth diaper service but I'm kinda nervous about it. I've used disposables before but not cloth. I don't want to waste a bunch of money if we don't end up using them.

I"m getting anxious to find out the sex cause we cant really buy to much until we know the sex. Was thinking about paying like 65$  to find out early but everyone is telling me to wait. . . easy for them to say.

So anyway I'm off to go work on baby shower invitations. Its still early so I don't have a picture for today yet. I will try to remember to post one tonight.

Busy Busy

I knew we had a lot todo today but we didnt get half the stuff done. It was a pain in the ass to find a crib. First we went to once upon a child they had tons of clothes but not much else. Though I did pick up a bath tub for $6.50 that we saw at walmart for $12. We then went to a thrift store but they didnt have anything. so we went to walmart where we got a high chair and a crib matress. They only had 2 cribs so we tried target. They had a crib changing, changing table, dresser combo on display but none in the store. We asked and he said what ever cribs they had would be there on the shelf but there were none there. So we came home to unload what we already bought. We looked on the Sears website and they had a nice one for kinda cheap, plus we got a 25% discount. Ended up getting it for $124. Most of em were in the $200 range. So all we need now is a car seat and stroller which mom and dad said they will get for us, and a swing. Well all the big stuff, we figured we will get alot of small stuff at the baby shower.

Then we went to get some groceries. Thank you to dad who paid for them he also paid for breakfast this morning. I feel bad but I really appreciate it. But pushing around that heavy cart messed up my back.

Dh put together the crib tonight and as I should have suspected something went wrong. Not because he was putting it together but because it has been the subject of many sitcoms. It looks great and he figured out what went wrong. I love him so much I hope his meds come soon. I know hes been having a touch time lately and i know its not his fault. I also know he feels bad about it but I just hate seeing him upset. I just want him to be happy.

Anyway I'm off to take a hot shower and try to get my back to stop hurting. I hope I get to see dad a little tomorrow before he leaves. I love that hes been able to stop by so much lately, wish mom could too though.

Ahh anyway I'm off. . . . .

Fireflys crib