Busy Busy

I knew we had a lot todo today but we didnt get half the stuff done. It was a pain in the ass to find a crib. First we went to once upon a child they had tons of clothes but not much else. Though I did pick up a bath tub for $6.50 that we saw at walmart for $12. We then went to a thrift store but they didnt have anything. so we went to walmart where we got a high chair and a crib matress. They only had 2 cribs so we tried target. They had a crib changing, changing table, dresser combo on display but none in the store. We asked and he said what ever cribs they had would be there on the shelf but there were none there. So we came home to unload what we already bought. We looked on the Sears website and they had a nice one for kinda cheap, plus we got a 25% discount. Ended up getting it for $124. Most of em were in the $200 range. So all we need now is a car seat and stroller which mom and dad said they will get for us, and a swing. Well all the big stuff, we figured we will get alot of small stuff at the baby shower.

Then we went to get some groceries. Thank you to dad who paid for them he also paid for breakfast this morning. I feel bad but I really appreciate it. But pushing around that heavy cart messed up my back.

Dh put together the crib tonight and as I should have suspected something went wrong. Not because he was putting it together but because it has been the subject of many sitcoms. It looks great and he figured out what went wrong. I love him so much I hope his meds come soon. I know hes been having a touch time lately and i know its not his fault. I also know he feels bad about it but I just hate seeing him upset. I just want him to be happy.

Anyway I'm off to take a hot shower and try to get my back to stop hurting. I hope I get to see dad a little tomorrow before he leaves. I love that hes been able to stop by so much lately, wish mom could too though.

Ahh anyway I'm off. . . . .

Fireflys crib

Long day

I hate Saturdays. 14 hours of nothing, lol. But I did finally get to hear one of our girls play her guitar and she is amazing. I'm trying to find an open mic night for her. I'm gonna make this short cause I'm exhausted. Tomorrow were gonna go look at cribs. Yeay.

Cage I wanna go pick up for the ferrets tomorrow.

Snow!!

Or not. They said it was supposed to snow tonight. I think meteorologists lie lol.

Anyway today was decent. Woke up to over $2000 in my bank account. Took care of some bills, then we went out to breakfast then to the mall. I finally got maturity clothes, feel much better about that, wont have to wear sweats for the next 5 months. Got dh a hat and some jeans too. Hes been liking skinny jeans lately. I still don't get it lol.

Then a little more drama at work but nothing too important. All in all not a bad day. . . but some one still owe me snow!!

New hat

Where oh where is my tax return!

Hopefully it should be here tomorrow. At least thats what the payment schedual thing from the IRS said. First on the todo list is pay off the douche bags at the appartment complex. Then buy some big baby stuff. Then hopefully get some maturnity clothes, and get dh more clothes. There are more things but thats all I can think of right now. The bonus is that my tax return is supost to be here on payday. I donno thats about all thats exciting going on right now. People are pissing me off at work. Dh is being amazing as usual. I came home and he had finished cleaning out the baby's room.

Dont really have a picture for today so here is some crap I'm about to put on craigslist.

Background interview and rice crispy treats

Its been a nice day. We went to the book store and got me a baby sign language book, got dh a book too ("The Cavemans Pregnancy Companion") and a baby book. He got me a scrap book a while ago but this is like the one you write down all their firsts and missing teeth and all that.

I'm really glad he got a pregnancy book. Makes me feel a little better that he is taking this whole thing seriously. Not that he wasn't before but for example at the midwife yesterday I said something out preecpalmpsia, and he said "You say that like I know what that is." I said that's exactly why I wanted him to read the baby book I had. I want him to know whats going on and what to expect cause I don't want him to go into this blindly but I also don't want to have to explain everything while I"m in the hospital.

After the book store we came home and I got ready for my background interview. Its funny how even though I know I"m a good person and I know I've never really gotten into trouble I'm still nervous. I even had to give them my facebook and myspace passwords.

Got home and spent some time with the hubs. He made a great dinner and I made rice crispy treats. Cant wait to tear into those.

This will be my commute if I get this job.

Longgggggg Day

Today started off ok, went to great, turned to crap, got a bit stressful, shot up my anxiety, and now I'm trying to relax.

Had a blood pressure check with the midwife first thing this morning. Actually it was a different midwife then I saw last time and I really really liked this one and totally would have switched to her if we hadn't made the decision to switch to an ob. We decided to do that because if we are going to continue to have problems with my blood pressure i just feel better with an ob. But the second midwife took her time and explained things to us she didn't need to like my labs and stuff she was awesome. She also let us listen to the heart beat. That was amazing. So the next step is I have an appointment on March 11th with the UCD OB. Then they will set up the anatomy scan and we will be able to see the gender. Yeay.

Then we went to the bank to deposit a check we got from Comcast from when we disconnected our service. Its in DHs name so when he went to deposit it but since his account is new they told him they had to put a hold on it for 5 days. He flipped. Now yes he has combat PTSD, and he is on meds and usually stuff like this would irritate him but he would be ok. But recently he ran out of his meds, and since we moved the meds are taking hella long to get here. He has been with out his meds for about a week and a half now. So anyway he gets mad and takes it out on me. I know he didn't mean to, I was just there. I'm ok now but at the time I had no idea what I did wrong. We were going to get lunch but with the bank thing we couldn't I had some money so I was gonna get us lunch. Well it was still too early and he doesn't like McDonald's breakfasts so I asked him where he wanted to go, he just said he wanted to go home. So on the way home I said I'm hungry I want to stop and get something. I checked to see if he wanted anything again, he said no. He gave me the silent treatment the whole way home. When we got home I asked why he was mad at me and all he would say is "I"m hungry" I flippin tried. So that's what I thought was wrong. We both apologized before I left for my work meeting.

Once at my work meeting we found out who out new facility manager will be. I think it will be ok, I have heard nothing but good things about her so I'm optimistic. On the other had I am so ready to find another job. I love my job, the people I work with, but the company sucks! Too much drama and rumors and politics.

So then on my way home traffic on the freeway is at a standstill. I found out on the radio someone was on an over pass trying to commit suicide and they had half the freeway closed. I was parked on the freeway and it wasn't even my side that was closed.

So I get home and I have all this anxiety. I don't want to take it out on DH so here I am trying to get rid of some anxiety before I go make dinner.

Don't really have a picture for today so here is our Firefly <3

Our Firefly

So ready to not be sick . . . .

I was sick right after I learned I was pregnant, I had my fun with morning sickness, and now I'm getting over the flu. All this within the last 2 months. At least now I can work Thursday. I have a background interview on Wednesday with Solono County for a 911 dispatcher. I've been told the back ground process will take about 6 months so hopefully this part should be done about the time I have the baby. Then by the time interviews are over I will be ready to go back to work.

This is going to be the longest week. Tuesday I go to the midwife for a blood pressure check, Wednesday is the interview, Thursday Friday and Saturday I work and Friday is payday. Annnnnnnd hopefully I should get my tax return Friday. Time goes by soo slow when your broke.  Morgan has like 30$ to last us until I get paid and I'm craving subway something fierce lol.

The fur kids

Like the title says. . .

I don't really know what I'm doing. Here on this blog or in life in general. I kinda wanted a way to get out some anxiety about being pregnant and being a new mom but I''m not sure exactly how this will turn out. I've tried to write blogs before but I always end up getting too busy. Guess we will have to wait and see how this goes.

So I'm 16 weeks today. I think I might have felt the baby move today. I know how gas feels, I've had it several times, I'd like to think I'd recognize it. This just feels different. Its hard to explain. Just like a little jab here or there. I'm hoping that when we do the anatomy ultrasound in 4 weeks that firefly will be moving around as much last time so I will be able to see whats going on and what I'm feeling.

24 weeks left and I feel like I'm not going to be ready in time. I cant really buy anything right now (until we get my tax return and find out the sex) but I feel like I should be reading or studying more. I've read "What to expect when your expecting" but feel like I should do more. I think the next thing I buy will be a baby sign language book.

I really do think who ever likes being pregnant is a masochist. When I first found out I was pregnant I got sick. Not the morning sickness type sick but something about the mucous all over my body thickening or something gross like that. Plus we were moving and the dust and cat hair had my allergies all over the place. Then I eventually got over that and had to deal with the exhaustion and morning sickness that lasted all day. Now that that is finally going away and I'm starting to get my energy back I get the flu and I can't take anything for it.

I've also been having problems with my blood pressure. Its been in the like 160's/90's. I'm trying really hard not to stress about that too. I feel like I cant talk to anyone about this either. If I talk to my mom I feel like shes down playing it just to try to make me feel better and not worry. I don't want to talk to DH about it cause he has his own anxiety to worry about. Plus I mean this issue not only puts the baby at risk it can cause me to have seizures and even die. Scary shit.

Work bs is a whole other thing I don't feel like getting into. Talk about not stressing right now.

Well this was more then I planned on for a first entry. Guess I have a lot more the bitch about then I thought. I like the idea mom had for posting a picture a day so here is one for today.

Simon always takes naps with me. I just love his neck rolls in this picture.